On my 21st birthday, I went out with a bunch of women friends, including 2 couples. All of us health-care workers. Drunk jerk got thrown out of a car right behind is as we stood on the sidewalk deciding where to go next.
He decided that us being out without a man, and clearly happy in our own company, was a terrible transgression. Then he noticed the couple vibes. Then he called us “a bunch of” d-word. Then he tried to kill one of the women in a couple.
Someone else saw him draw a knife. He went to slash her throat. Someone else pulled her back, by her arms unfortunately.
I saw him raising a fist to a defenseless friend, her eyes huge, staring at the fist.
Somehow I levitated between 2 parked cars and a couple meters of pavement in the time it took his hand to move another foot.
I landed in front of him with my arms raised in a blocking stance my Dad taught me at 9 or 10 years old. He said, “I’m teaching you to block with both arms at once, so you don’t get confused in the heat.” That worked!
The attacker looked stunned. Took a step back. I stepped back. He took another, one more, then turned and ran.
I ran back to the bar we’d come out of, passing a couple of delightful young men, shouting a warning: “There’s a man, with a knife, back there.”
I had no idea my left side was covered in blood pouring out of my face.
Those two precious darlings ran. Found out later they ran *towards* the attack, followed my friends’ pointing fingers, and kept him blocked in at the train station, where he had just missed the last train out. Trust me, it takes balls to be a queen.
When the back door of the bar finally opened, the barkeep peeped out and said, “Sorry, we’re clo — oh, dear — somebody get me a towel with ice in it!” He clamped it to my face and that was the moment I realized my left shoe was squishing with the blood in it and I kinda lost my cool.
I hammered on the brick wall with my bare fists, screaming “Never again! Never again!”
I had already been a female for 21 years, which taught me a lot about uninvited violence; had learned about the Stonewall riots; knew the horrific statistics of how often non-heteronormative women are attacked “to teach them a lesson”; and had started getting involved in “let’s all treat each other like frkn human beings & not torture and kill each other like it’s a sport” types of activism.
So. All that was behind that “Never again”. It was too much in my life already, and I was barely an adult.
When the cops brought the attacker in the bulletproof squad car, so I could identify him, I couldn’t see at first because his hand was over his face. Cop went around to the side to ask him to lower his hand. He turned sideways, and I saw the profile that had gone to sink a knife into the throat of a defenseless woman.
It seemed logical at the time that I didn’t want to fight the cops, one on either side of the car. I decided to go through the windshield instead. It was only bulletproof glass; between fingernails and fury, I saw no reason (in my state at the time) not to get through it.
A minute later, with drunk dude stark white and frozen with terror, one of my friends (an ER nurse) pulled me off the hood by the slack of my best black jeans (this was the late 1980s) now smearing blood on the hood of the car.
She and the cop looked at each other and chorused, “I think that’s a positive ID.” ?
While this makes a great story, the memory of it also makes it very, very hard to speak up against microaggressive b.s. because you never know where it will lead. Name calling can go anywhere. Being in a group is some protection but not as much as you might think. If I’d tripped on my gods-assisted leap across that distance, my friend would be dead, and her partner would not have been even acknowledged as a widow, and all of us would have been stuck with that harrowing memory with no tolerable ending.
I now have long hair and am not nearly as fit, so I have the leverage of obvious straight privilege more than I ever did before. (Not that I’m personally wedded to gender or orientation. Binarism is a bit weird to me, but hey, you do you.) My actual sexuality has been all over the map and is currently parked in Neutral: don’t have it, don’t want it. But hey, you do you — that’s the bottom line.
That language changes all the time. When I was an activist, at first “queer” was an all-embracing term, but then the language started moving to an acronym. In the move to acknowledge all the variety, that acronym has gotten unwieldy. The English language being the adaptable thing that it is, another word-based term will emerge to act as the modern umbrella term; that’s still in process.
You don’t have to like LGBTQAI+. If you’d actually read, as I have, holy books in an intellectually responsible translation, you’d find that the major ones are OK with it. God is OK with it, but you do you: just keep your hands to yourself.
You don’t have to support LGBTQAI+ businesses or like having LGBTQAI+ employees. If you check the stats, you’ll find that businesses with strong LGBTQAI+-positive policies and culture get more and better work out of ALL of their employees. A tolerant environment is very freeing to everyone, not just the nominally unusual! But you do you; just keep your hostility to yourself. It’s not OK to be hateful or spiteful at work.
You don’t have to want a LGBTQAI+ family. If you check the records, you’ll find that kids raised in LGBTQAI+ homes are just as smart & just as competent (and generally somewhat more adaptable) as anyone else’s kids. You do you; just keep specific laws off those bodies, because it’s no more your business than your sex, your private parts, your children, and your home life belong in other voter’s hands.
You do you. Let others do them. That’s basic humanity.
It’s not just LGBTQAI+ people who suffer for it. It really is a disservice to everyone.
Let’s get this crapshow turned around, because we really need to get together on issues beyond the personal, if any of our descendants are going to have a bearable future.